Today I'm living on four hours of sleep.

Take my hand and tell me its okay to be crazy.

They say good things take time but great things happen in the blink of an eye.

You need to realize he doesn't care and you could be with someone who does.

I'm changing. I don't exactly how yet but I'm excited.

I wish you were here but you're there and there doesn't know how lucky it is.

A girl should be two things: classy and fabulous.  

With him, life was routine. Without him, life was unbearable.

Everyone knows it hurts to grow up.

If you love him set him free and if you have to stalk him he probably wasn't yours in the first place.

That's what I want someday.  You know, to be married forever to someone I'm madly in love with.

I don't blame you for being you but you can't blame me for hating it.

Today, I wrote a story instead.

The sun is high in the sky, casting a glow in the room.
The house is quiet.
All I can hear is your breathing.
My head is nuzzled in your chest, right where it fits.
I can breathe in your scent as often as I want.
Your hand is in my hair...
You fell asleep playing with it, twisting it through your fingers.
Your other arm is around my waist.
You're holding me tightly, even in your sleep.
This tells me that you love me.
I wonder if you can feel me smile but I decide you can't.
You're so warm and comfortable and soft.
I woke up to see if you're still here.
You are.
I close my eyes, breathe you in, and drift off to sleep.



Obviously dedicated to my hero and best friend, Eli.

Today was the first day of school.

You should learn how to say I love you more often.

I just want them to know that they didn't break me.

One day you're going to meet a boy who will treat you like he should. Like the sun rises and sets with you.

I remember listening to the passing cars, on our back staring at the stars. I live by these memories of you.

There is much in the world to make us afraid. There is much in our faith to make us unafraid.

People don't change. They become more of who they are.

 I just hope someday I see you and your heart stops.

You can never prepare for the moment that changes your life.

I asked Jesus, "How much do you love me?"

"This much," he said as he spread his arms apart and died.

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Today's my second mom's birthday.

Hey guys. Only pictures today. Sorry. 

^ Best. Picture. Ever. If you don't get this, go watch Mean Girls. 

I hope you're happy.

Love, Jessica:]

Today is Amber's birthday:]

I guess you're just one of those people who are supposed to walk in my life, teach me a lesson, and walk out. 

Somethings are meant to be broken but I'm not one of them.

I've learned that you can't make someone love you. You can only stalk them until they panic and hope they give in.

I started out thinking I could handle this and then I fell in love.

Moving on is a process. You have to promise yourself you're ready to let go.

He looks at her and thinks, "The one who got away." She looks at him and thinks, "The one who let me go."

And who knows. Maybe one day we'll be perfect for each other.

When I think back, there were so many times when fate tried to force us together.

Love is never wanting to lose faith, never wanting to give up, and never truly moving on. Love is knowing and praying in the deepest part of what's left of your heart that they feel the same.

 

And tonight was the wrong night to realize this wasn't real.

 Orientation tomorrow. Yay... 2/10 comments until big post:] 

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Love, Jessy

Today, I'm figuring something out.

Some people never get over their first loves. They spend their whole lives trying to recapture the thrill.

 

 It's a great feeling to know that he couldn't let go of you either.

No relationship is perfect, ever. There are always some ways you have to bend, to compromise, to give something up in order to gain something greater...The love we have for each other is bigger than these small differences. And that's the key. It's like a big pie chart, and the love in a relationship has to be the biggest piece. Love can make up for a lot.

You and I were meant to be. Period. End of story. Cue happy ending music. 

It's funny how we always find ourselves running back to the ones we swore we'd leave behind. There is always this kind of magic thing. Keeps us turning around.

 

Sometimes you have to be strong for yourself. You have to know that you're a good person and a good friend. What's meant to be will end up good and what's not - wont. Love is worth fighting for, but sometimes you cant be the only one fighting. At times, people need to fight for you. If they don't, you just have to move on and realize what you gave them was more than they were willing to give you. Hopefully, people realize great things when they come around and don't lose something real. Always fight, until you can't anymore, and then be fought for.

I used to constantly look for people to replace you. Someone to talk to everyday, someone to trust, someone to believe in, someone to love, someone to have the time of my life with. I stopped though. I learned some people really can't be replaced. 

The truth is I gave my heart away a long time ago, my whole heart, and I never really got it back.

Without even realizing it, you taught me a lot of things. not only about life, but how its okay to feel something extraordinary about someone.

A friend is someone who understands your past, believes in your future, and accepts you just the way you are

It's the possibility that keeps us going. 

Not the guarantee.

Good luck Shelbea, Amber,  and Analese. Kick butt;]

Today, I bought some earrings.

I hope that someday, somebody wants to hold you for twenty minutes straight, and that's all they do. They don't pull away. They don't look at your face; they don't try to kiss you. All they do is wrap you up in their arms, without an ounce of selfishness in it.

Stay mad as long as you can because once you're not mad anymore, it hurts. It hurts like hell and once it hurts that bad, you can't make yourself mad anymore.

I don't forgive people because I'm weak. I forgive them because I'm strong enough to understand that everyone makes mistakes.

 

Stay up all night with the stars, confess all the faith I had in you. 

When you love someone, you can't just be friends. It just doesn't work that way.

Sometimes you need to take a step back in life and think about what you want. Think about what you can live with and, more importantly, what you can't live without.

There’s no race, no religion, no class system, no color, no sexual orientation that makes us better than anyone else. We are all deserving of love.

  

In love, we all take risks, we all fall down, but you should never be scared to go a little further or a little crazier because in the end, the sweetest love is the one that made you lose control.

  

Do what makes you happy. Be with who makes you smile. Laugh as much as you breath and love as much as you live.

  

We lose people we love because they are meant to love someone else. We lose them because we are destined to find somebody else. It is a simple fact that is sometimes hard to accept because we are too stupid to let go.

 

Went shopping today with my boyfriend, his sister and his mom today. One of the best days I had in awhile. I got new earrings:]

Love, Jessica.