Sunday, August 2, 2009

I just don't think life should hurt this way.

... one ...
People don't change. They just find new ways to lie to you.

... two ...
The sad thing is, I want to believe. I really do. I want to believe but life has just left me too tainted...

... three ...
It just really sucks. It sucks when you hear that one song and you get an instant pain in your chest. It sucks when all you want is for him to call and tell you he misses you. It sucks when you need him and he doesn't need you. It sucks when he doesn't love you back. It just really sucks.

... four ...
Whose that? I'm sorry I don't know you. We used to go out? Really? I never knew. Best friends, was it? Perfect couple? How come I don't remember this? We used to talk for hours? Doesn't ring a bell. You were a jerk? Damn right you were.

... five ...
You live. You laugh. You love. You learn. You scream. You cry. You crash. You burn.

... six ...
You saw her today. I know you did. You didn't hold me as tight and your thoughts, they wandered. You eyes had a glow of her smile.

... seven ...
"To me fearless is not the absense of fear. it's not being completely unafraid. to me, fearless is having fears. fearless is having doubts. lots of them. to me, fearless is living in spite of those things that scare you to death. fearless is falling madly in love again, even though you've been hurt before. fearless is walking into your freshman year of high school at fifteen. fearless is getting back up and fighting for what you want over and over again..even though every time you've tried before, you've lost. it's fearless to have faith that someday things will change. fearless is having the courage to say goodbye to someone who only hurts you, even if you can't breathe without them. i think it's fearless to fall for your best friend, even though he's in love with someone else. and when someone apologizes to you enough times for things they'll never stop doing, i think its fearless to stop believing them. its fearless to say "you're NOT sorry," and walk away. i think loving someone despite what people think is fearless. i think allowing yourself to cry on the bathroom floor is fearless. letting go is fearless. then, moving on and being alright..that's fearless too. but no matter what love throws at you, you have to believe in it. you have to believe in love stories and prince charmings and happily ever after. i think love is fearless."
-taylor swift


... eight ...
There are things you wish for before big moments. I wish my friends were here. I wish my parents were different. I wish there was someone who got what was happening, and could just look at me and tell me we weren't crazy, that we weren't being stupid. Someone to say "I'm proud of you, and I got your back... no matter what."

... nine ...
The truth is, she missed him even though he was never technically hers. And really, that's what makes it so unbearable.

... ten ...
What would you do if the rain was pouring down, there were unlimited movies to watch, and I was trapped inside your house for the night?

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