Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Today I hate red lights.

Tell me you'll never forget me because if I thought you would, I would never leave.
I look at you and I see my best friend. Your energy and your passion inspire me in ways that I never thought possible. Your inner beauty is so strong that I no longer fear being myself. I no longer fear at all. I never thought that I could find someone to love that would love me back unconditionally. And then I realized that, although we are often apart, you are always with me. You are my soul mate. You give me purpose when I feel I have none. Without you my soul would be empty, my heart broken, my being incomplete. I thank God every day that you were brought into my life. And I thank you for loving me.
We may not have it all together but together we have it all.
Everyone wants to be the sun that lights up your life. But I'd rather be your moon, so I can shine on you during your darkest hour when your sun isn't around.
I told him I was afraid of falling, and he whispered,"I have wings."
Maybe some women aren't meant to be tamed. Maybe they're supposed to run wild until they find someone just as wild to run with.
We said our goodbyes and swore we'd stay in touch then we went our seperate ways, knowing that no one really does.
Don't let him have the satisfaction of knowing you'll always be there waiting.
Don't ever think you're nothing because someday, someone is going to put everything on the line for you.
We all carry around these things inside us that no one else can see. They hold us down like anchors. They drown us out at sea.
If we were a movie, you'd be the right guy and I'd be the best friend you'd fall in love with.

Its like one of those old fashioned movies where at the end everybody is screaming, "Tell him you love him!" but you just can't.
It's not your fault. You've been good to me.
I would rather fight with you then make love to anyone else.
And later, when he slipped into bed beside her with a whispered "Goodnight" in her ear, his hand lingering over her cheek and a soft kiss on her forehead, she wanted to believe in him more than ever.
You have no idea what you do to me and yet I can't tell you.
If you feel passionately about something, commit to it. Don't let anybody stop you. Trust me, they'll try.
I see you everyday and I miss you everyday. You're so close and still so far away...
Dare to dream your dreams, dare to believe you can achieve your dreams, Dare to have faith in yourself, and dare to love. What have you got to lose? It's just a dare.

Happy New Years :] - S&J


Today, I hate salutations.

TpI like that you ramble when you're nervous. I like that you know you ramble when you're nervous. I like that I still make you nervous.
I have to admit it, boy. I have a bad habit and, baby, that's you.
Because once upon a time, we were best friends. And, yes, there's been a lot of bad things happening, but none of that matters right now. You need me, I'm there. Any time, any place, anywhere.
She's a girl. A sixteen-year-old beauty on the brink of freedom. A rebellious child with everything to lose. Just another confused youth who thinks she's special, because she listens to bands whose names have more words than some sentences. She pretends not to care, and most of the time, she gets away with it. But the truth is, no one could care more than she does. She pretends to hate herself more than she really does. And she's scared to remember the past, but even more scared to forget it. [I normally dislike quotes like this but this one spoke to me...]
Love your enemies just in case your friends turn out be a bunch of bastards.
I know it all seems wrong but, baby, we're invincible.
There's nothing scarier than getting what you want the most because then you have everything to lose.
Her mom calls her sunshine because she's always had a smile. Let me tell you something, I've seen your daughter in an alleyway, drunk and stoned. I still remember the day sunshine turned cloudy.
Its only a matter of time. Until you like him. Until you love him. Until you date him. Until he breaks your heart, and you can't take it anymore, you just... Its only a matter of time.
Here's to the night I stood alone, to the night I cried so hard i couldn't breathe, to the night i prayed for him to come back to me, and of course to the night where he never looked back.
But I swear, this girl's a mess you could sell.
You look like I need another drink.
It's nothing but a smile but it gets me every time. It's 2:27 and i'm calling you. I've been upset all night and you're the only one who gets it. I know i'm not the greatest person in the world, and i don't deserve someone as great as you; but i love you, my best friend.
Sometimes, I catch myself wondering where you are and how you're doing.
There's always something more you wish he'd say.
And he said, "I would love to marry you."
He knew he made a mistake. You could see it in his face every time she walked into the room. He wished he hadn't done that to her.
Think of how differently everything would have turned out if you had never met that one person who changed everything.
He was never in my vocabulary until one day, he became the only word my heart knew.
You didn't intentionally break my heart; you even said you were sorry, but i cried anyway. I know the truth that you're too scared to admit. You're with her, and when you look at her, you can’t remember my name.
The greatest war ever fought is the war in the mind of a girl, young and in love - between her mind screaming a warning, telling her, "There's no such thing as fairy tales", and her heart quietly whispering, "You never know..."
I wish you would just show up on my doorstep. Not with anything special, just you. And when I’d open the door, you’d smile. And while I’m trying to figure out what the hell you’re doing here, you’d tell me how hard the past months have been, how much you’ve thought about me, how much you regretted everything. And then you’d take me into your arms and ask me to forgive you, and I would without hesitation.
Its like I can't hold you close enough.
And I dont understand by the way you look at me, why we can't be together.

I miss you. Not enough to want you back, just enough for it to hurt.
There are so many things I'm not sure of in life, but with all certainty at this very minute, all I know is that I miss him.

You hurt me so bad, but maybe it's my fault because I stuck around too long.

I still love him with every ounce of my heart, I just dont let it get to me anymore.
It takes two to tango but one to let go.

Let me ruin your life, let me break your heart, then I'll ask you why we can't be friends. Let me rip your world into little pieces, let me destroy who you thought you were, and then I'll ask if we can be friends.

I opened my heart to you. I can't just stand around like a fool, waiting for you to be ready.
And sometimes your heart takes you to places that can never lead to a happy ending.

It's like the hidden secret that no one tells you.  We can all be beautiful girls.  It's like Dorothy clicking her heels to go home. You could do it all along.
I should have told you from the start. I will let you down.
Poets often describe love as an emotion that we can’t control, one that overwhelms logic and common sense, that’s what it was like for me. I didn’t plan on falling in love with you, and i doubt if you planned on falling in love with me, but once we met, it was clear that neither of us could control what was happening to us, we fell in love, despite our differences, and once we did, something rare and beautiful was created, for me love like that has happened only once, and that’s why every minute we spend together has been saved in my memory, I’ll never forget a single moment of it. –The Notebook 
People think that if you love somebody hard enough then everything is just gonna work out. People are wrong.

~The romantics would call this a love story, the cynics would call it a tragedy.~

Don't be flattered that he misses you.  He should miss you.  You're deeply missable.  However, he's still the same person who just broke up with you.  Remember, the only reason he can miss you is because he's choosing, every day, not to be with you.
The ones who love us least are the ones we'll die to please
If you don't fall in love, you can't get hurt... but it sure is lonely all by yourself 
Don't say we aren't right for each other, the way I see it is... we aren't right for anyone else 
I live to like you and I can't like you anymore. So, when you get your heart splattered all over hell and you're feeling really low and dirty, don't run to me to help pull you back up because, maybe, for the first time in your life, I won't be there.

You want a man who will lead you down the beach with his hand over your eyes just so you can discover the feel of sand under your feet. You want a guy that will wake you up ay dawn just bursting to talk to you. Can't wait another minute to just to find out what you'll say. Am I right?
 I want your input on video rentals. I stand there for hours, I can't pick anything out.

She's a pretty typical teenager. Angry, insecure, confused. I wish I could tell her that's all going to pass, but I don't want to lie to her.






Monday, December 28, 2009

Today I hate pain.

Stop... You're hurting me...
Call me Mr. Flinstone, I can make your bed rock.
I hate to see her go but I love to watch her leave.
Have some faith, not everyone you love is going to leave you.
Oh... That was your girl? I thought I recognized her...
I can't help but remember everything. I mean, you see somebody and you think about all they've ever said and done - the good and the bad. It all comes back to you, and it feels so right and hurts so bad all at once.
You showed me what it's like not to care.
I want to marry you someday.
Nobody said it was going to be easy, they just promised it would be worth it.
You can have my heart or we can share it like the last slice.
Faith is taking the first step when you can't see the whole staircase.
Smiling is my favorite. You make me smile. That makes you my favorite.
Someday, someone is going to thank you for letting me go.
You're not even mine and I'm afraid to lose you.
I might be wrong.
Someday all of the pain and memories will leave me, just like you did.
No reason to stay is a good reason to go.
Life is about falling. Living is about getting back up.

Sunday, December 27, 2009

Today I hate caffiene

I don't wanna make you cry.
And I used to think I was all you would need.
Day 'n' night, I toss and turn. I keep stress in my mind.
On my birthday in your calender, there's nothing. Wow. Thanks, mom.
Apologizing for the sake of easing your conscience is one of the most selfish things you can do. Don't rip their wounds right open again if you know it won't change anything.
They say people come and go in your life, but the truth is, no one ever really disappears from your life. Their role just changes.
I could conquer the world with one hand if you were holding the other.
And that was what she did, she made little paper boats. And she jumped on people. Yes, she jumped on people a lot. And she liked to look pretty because she knew she was. And sometimes she got very, very confused but deep, deep, deep, deep down, she was just a happy, sweet girl who was always falling in love.
I say I need you but I don't. I don't have you right now and I'm living quite healthily. I'm not sick. Maybe, I'm a little, okay, extremely, sad but I don't need you. I just love you.
And sweetheart, I work this world like my own runway.
We always have two reasons for doing something: a good reason and the real reason.
I love that you haven't given up on me though I've given you every reason to.
I cannot seem to get along with you and I cannot seem to get along without you.
If you had one phone call to make before you died, who would you call, what would you say, and what are you waiting for?
You'll always be part of me.
Letting go is something you do when you still believe in someone, you just don't love them anymore.
Have you ever looked at a picture of yourself and seen a stranger in the background? It makes you wonder how many strangers have pictures of you, how many moments of other peoples lives we have been in. Were we part of someone's life when their dreams came true, or were we there when their dreams died? Did we keep trying to get in, as if we were somehow destined to be there...or did the shot take us by surprise? Just think; you could be a big part of someone else's life, and not even know it.
How many roads must a man walk down before you can call him a man?

Once upon a time,
You were my best friend.
When you held my hand,
You promised 'til the end.

But I stayed up too late.
Or my problems were too much.
Or my cursive was too messy.
Or you just ran out of love.

Because you looked me in the eye
And told me we were through.
Then you walked away from me,
And my heart tore into two.

And I forget to breathe,
Because I hold my breath sometimes.
Like the night you said goodbye.
You said you'd never say goodbye.

I wonder if you care,
Or if you ever cared at all.
I wonder if wonder.
If you ever want to call.

I see you in the halls,
And my heart begins to race.
You easily glance at me,
With no emotion on your face.

And I forget to breathe,
Because I hold my breath sometimes.
Like the night you said goodbye.
You said you'd never say goodbye.

If you ever want to know,
How it feels to feel this way,
You can look inside my heart,
And see how badly I'm not okay.

So I take a deep breath,
Because sometimes I forget to breathe.
Like when you said goodbye,
When you walked away from me.

That night I didn't breathe,
I held my breathe all night.
The night you said goodbye.
You said you'd never say goodbye.

Saturday, December 26, 2009

Today, I hate intimidation.

You probably won't remember the test you failed, but chances are you will never forget the person you were with the night when you decided not to study.
If you feel like running today, you know I'd understand.
Just go back to sleep.
Did you think that I would cry on the phone?
This jealous actress has a habit of making things way too tragic.
Maybe it's not my weekend, but its gonna be my year.
That guy didn't know you because if he did, he would have never walked away.
I looked at him and he looked at me and, for a split second, it was like we forgave each other for everything.
Girl, we'll take the world by storm. It isn't that hard.
Life's tough. Get a helmet.
I called to let you know that, despite all that's happened and all the miles that separate us, I still think about the way it was in the beginning.
Life is an awfully ugly place to not have a best friend...
I'm damn good too.
One boy. One girl. Two hearts. Their world. Time goes by. Secrets rise. One more sad song. Tears shed. She's gone.
He was in love with her and, at times, he thought she loved him too.
He opens his lips and mouths, "Hi."
I have a theory that sleep heals you: inside and out. That's probably why I'm so messed up.

Friday, December 25, 2009

Today, I hate distrust.

And there we were, awkwardly beginning something new. Just friends was no longer fine with us.
"Maybe I'll just jump off this building right now!" "Then I'd jump off and catch you." "Maybe I'd run away and find someone new!" "Then I'd wish you're happy." "Maybe I won't forgive you." "Then I won't forgive myself."
It rains a lot this time of year.
My heart is ugly but it could be yours.
I'm far from what I once was but not yet what I am going to be.

Don't take my advice, you never wanted the nice boys anyways.
I have a soft spot for you, boy. I think about you more than I'd like to admit. You've made me cry just as much as you've made me smile. As I write this, a pressure forms in my chest. I miss you. I need you. I love you. I want you, I want you so badly. And I hope with all I have, you have a soft spot for me too.
We do it in the dark with smiles on our faces.
You always fold just before you're found out. **
Where are you? And, I'm sorry. I cannot sleep. I cannot dream tonight.
Don't waste your time on me, you're already the voice inside my head.
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight?
Who told you life wasn't worth the fight? They're wrong. They lied.
I need someone to hold me. I need someone to want to hold me.
We can live like Jack and Sally.
The way he makes me smile before I can wring my hands around his neck.
I loved you even when you weren't around. Doesn't that count for something?
I remember asking you if you were affectionate. Haha. What a stupid question...
And that's about the time she walked away from me.
This 10AM cup of coffee has me feeling sophisticated. And, well, almost as if I don't need you but, I swear, I do.
Forgive me for liking you too much, I'll forgive you for not liking me enough. forgive me for the loud racing of my heart, i'll forgive you for not hearing it. forgive me for finding you amazing i'll forgive you for never doing the same. forgive me for wanting to be with you more than anything, i'll forgive you for avoiding me. forgive me for being so pathetic, i'll forgive you for taking advantage of it. forgive me for not being able to let go, i'll forgive you for never holding on .

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Today, I hate people who don't do their dishes.

Even though I'm over him, I still think about him when I'm all alone here, reading these quotes.
All she has to do is put her headphones on and walk away from it all.
The gifts you're receiving from me will be one awkward silence and two hopes you cry yourself to sleep, staying up, waiting by the phone.
I want you to miss me so badly.
Who do you want to be? The guy I tell all my secrets to or the guy all of my secrets are about?
There are some feelings that fill you up, that dig their roots into your skin and never let go ahey blow you over like the strongest wind and waves.
I'll wear those shoes and you can wear that dress.
So forgive me for being honest, but things would be different if you weren't around and I'm not really sure as to whether or not they wouldn't be better.
But most of the time, I just think I wasn't good enough.
Other boys will try to tell me that I'm theirs but I can promise you, right now, deep down in my heart, I will always be your girl and no one else's.
"GUESS WHAT!" "What?!" "I love you." [<<>
I'm still in love with you.
I don't know what we are. Sometimes, it feels like we are friends. Sometimes, it feels like we are more than that. Sometimes, it feels like I've never known you at all.
And I know it sounds like we're crazy teenagers and you've heard it all but this is different. I believe in us.
All the words we never say come out and then we're all ashamed.
You always hurt the ones you love.
My newest goal in life is to kiss you under mistletoe.
Find that guy who will pick up the pieces of your broken heart and put them all back together except for one piece which he'll replace with a piece of his own heart.
I wanna get with ya and take ya pictuh.
I love sneaking up behind you, wrapping my arms around you, and kissing your cheek.
Just want it with everything you have.
And all I want is him to be standing outside my window when I wake up Christmas morning with a sign that says, "Santa forgot one."

Thursday, December 17, 2009

Today, people who put me in pain.

Hey little mama. Ooh, you're a stunner.
Tell me what you know about dreamin, dreamin. You don't really know about nothin, nothin. Tell me what you know about them night terrors every night; 5 am, cold sweats, wakin' up to the skies. Tell me what you know about dreams, dreams. Tell me what you know about night terrors, nothin. You don't really care about the trials of tomorrow, rather lay awake in a path full of sorrow. - Pursuit of Happiness, Kid Cudi
And in the end, you're just a typical guy, dragging along a girl all because you don't know what you want.
A heart break isn't always like a bomb exploding. Sometimes, it's like a feather dropping and the only one who can hear it is you.
Sometimes, I seriously question your sexuality.
"I was off to church." "I was off to drink you away."
I can't look at you while I'm lying next to him.
I've got some issues that nobody can see and all of these emotions are pouring out of me.
If you wait for me, I'll be your light in the dark if you lose your way. If you wait for me, I'll be your voice when you don't know what to say. I'll be your shelter, I'll be you fate. Wait for me.
Was it a good kiss?
I'm not yours and you're not mine but let's just sit here and pass the time.
If I fall, if I die, know I lived and missed some bullets
For once, I don't have to try to be happy. When I'm with you, I just am.
Things are only impossible until they're not.
The world is smaller than you think and the people in it are more beautiful than you imagine.
Study nature. Love nature. Stay close to nature. It will never fail you.
I got 99 problems and they all bitches.

Yeah, you know you love her.
I suffer from girlnextdooritis when a guy is friends with you and that's it.
Love isn't what makes the world go around, it's what makes it worth it.
I know I love you because you make me laugh. You have me thinking about you right before I fall asleep.
She's getting to you. You're starting to realize you don't like being without her.
Fall hard, fall long, fall forever.
You're so tough. I want to be your first weakness.
Its like taking me to the top of the highest mountain, showing me the world and saying, "This what you can never have."
Twenty years from now, you'll be more disappointed by the things you haven't done rather than those you have.
I need a boy to give me a good hug and say, "I'm sorry our gender sucks."
If I could have one dance with you, I'd choose a song that never ends.
What can I say? You're just my kind of guy.
Maybe I was trying to be obviously, extremely, pitifully, shamelessly awkward.
In fact, he liked everything about her.
You stolid ignoramus, you make me so lugubrious sometimes.

Here's to never forgetting.
Me and you, we could make the world jealous.
If you're truly meant to be together, you'll always find your way back to one another.
I want to be the last thing you think about before you fall asleep.
When she's in deep emotional pain, she closes her eyes and stays silent, as if she's at peace.
Kiss me and then tell me you don't feel a thing.
I wanted it to be you. I wanted it to be you so badly.
And when you take, you take the very best of me.
She talks about you like you put the stars in the sky.
A girl worth kissing is not easily kissed.
Baby, that's all I got.

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Today, I hate dysfunction.

I'm gonna break your heart, watch you take the fall.
"Pretend to be in love with me," He said as she thought, "It's really not that hard."
Please fall down for me, Mr. Moon.
Remember, no matter who brings you down, I'm always here to pick you up. That's what best friends are for.
If you have to ask yourself if this quote was dedicated to you, it most definitely is.
Isn't it funny how one morning you can wake up and realize you're not in love with the boy of your dreams anymore?
If you repeat chapters, the end will remain the same.
It took awhile for me to understand what love is but now that I get it, it'll take forever to forget.
You know that place between awake and asleep? The place where you remembering dreaming. That's where I'll always love you. That's where I'll always be waiting.
Beautiful people don't just happen.
There's a place in this world where people like you find people like me.
She's always going to love him and he's never going to know.
You have to believe in love stories and prince charmings and happily ever afters.
"SO IF ALL OF YOUR FRIENDS JUMPED OFF A BRIDGE, WOULD YOU TOO?" "FIRST OF ALL, IT WAS MY IDEA TO JUMP OFF THE BRIDGE."
No hard feelings. No one to blame. Just two people who didn't feel the same.
And maybe, someday someone will fill this hole you left in my heart.
Somewhere in between all the mind games, lies, and seduction, i fell for you. Somewhere in between all the broken promises, manipulation, and heartaches, i got over you but i guess i fibbed a few times, too. Remember all those times i swore i needed you? Well consider them lies because, baby, here i am without you and i survived.
You get into the biggest fights with those you love the most because that relationship is worth fighting for.

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Today, I hate cats who scratch.

If haters saw me walk on water, they'd say I can't swim.
I love you but not only for who you are but also for who I am when I'm with you.
I hope you always find a reason to smile.
Crying doesn't indicate you're weak. Since the day you were born, it's proved you're alive.
I don't know what your problem is but I bet it's hard to pronounce.
People ask me if I believe in forever and I can't help but sit back and laugh. With the way my life's going, I can't believe in tomorrow.
Somewhere, someone knows the words to the songs you're singing.
Those who criticize our generation forget who raised it.
You're way too young to believe it's not going to be okay.
Sad thing is, you can love someone and still be wrong for them.
Congratulations. You made him fall in love.
Who am I? You sure you want to know? The story of my life is not for the faint of heart. If somebody said it was a happy little tale... if somebody told you I was just your average ordinary guy, not a care in the world... somebody lied.
I can't deny your eyes.
Live for the moments you can't put into words.
We all can't be heroes. Some of us have to sit on the curb and clap as they go by.
The worst feeling is needing to go home but having no idea where that could be.
Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret.
Did you swallow a magnet too? I feel like I can't pull away.
"You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before, she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect - you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together. But if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being a human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break- her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more then she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there." 
- Bob Marley
If we discovered that we only have five minutes to live, every phone booth and cell phone would be occupied by people calling others to stammer that they love them.
Six billion people in this world. That's twelve billion hands to hold and twelve billion eyes to gaze into. Six billion lips to whisper the only words I need to hear It's funny how I don't have to meet
a single one of those people to know that you are the one who was meant for me.

Monday, December 14, 2009

Today, I hate assumptions.

She's an ordinary girl with a beautiful gift.
No matter what your relationship status is, everyone has someone they'd marry tomorrow if they asked today.
She still wanted to bake him cookies like she always did, but now she wanted him to taste the dough from her fingers. She still wanted to read to him, but she wanted him to lie his head on her stomach while she did it. She still never wanted to leave when she was at his house, but not to stay up as late as possible, just to curl up in his bed with him and sleep.
Its better to cross the line and suffer the consequences than to stare at the line for the rest of your life.
She straightens her hair, puts on her eyeliner, glosses her lips, and takes one last look in the mirror all for a boy who will never care.
There's a little seriousness behind ever JK, a little curiousity behind every JW, a little knowledge behind ever IDK, and a little emotion behind every IDC.
Imagine a future moment in your life where everything’s perfect… you know, the greatest moment of your life and you get to experience it with one person… who’s standing next to you? [That's my Nicole.]
Be nice to everyone you meet. They're fighting a battle you know nothing about.
When you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with someone, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible.
And just like that, my day was turned around.
Because smiling is the second best thing you can do with your lips.
We all have our time machines. The ones that take us back are called memories. The ones that take us forward are called dreams.
Beauty is measured by the size of your heart, not by the size of your pants.
It's better we're not talking anymore, not pretending everything is okay. Because, for once, I feel like you're not faking your feelings for me.
One heartbreak. Two eyes crying. Three words never said again. Four hands that won't be held. Five mornings you'll pass in the halls. Six love notes, ripped and torn. Seven days a week you'll think of him. Eight sad songs a night before bed. Nine wishes that never came true. Ten years before he realizes you were the one.

P.S. In New Moon, Bella says, "He [Jake] makes me feel better. I mean, he makes me feel alive. The hole in my chest... well, when I'm with Jake it's like it's almost healed for a while." Well, this is how Christian makes me feel. Sure, my life still has its problems and I still get a little blue sometimes, or a lot of the time, but when I'm talking to Christian, the pain goes away. He's my big distraction when life is overwhelming me. He can always make me laugh when I don't want to. He has me pouring out my heart so easily. Its like, he just understands. I can't scare him away even though he's seen the worst of me. He knows me better than anyone else in this world and he still loves me. When I hug him, he makes me feel safe and I never, ever want to let go. Words can not describe how dearly I hold Christian in my heart. Christian has been my best friend since the end of 8th grade. I don't know how I went on before without him. Maybe I could get by without him previously, but no way in all of hell would I be able to live without him now. I love you, Christian Diego Martinez. - Jessica Christian Folck [I would chose you.]

Sunday, December 13, 2009

Today, I hate songs that bring back memories.

It felt good to have my hand back in yours.
Somehow, when we seek to discover the best in others, we sometimes bring out the best in ourselves.
It's a shame how two hearts are connected but can't be together.
Forever is a long time, but I wouldn't mind spending it by your side.
Be honest, even when it hurts.
"Is it inappropriate to hold hands in church?" "Only if someone sees you." [Hehe. Jake's the best.]
When I'm good, I'm good. When I'm bad, I'm better. ;]
You're not worth putting myself in these situations.
I've got the gift of one-liners and you've got the curse of curves.
I still find each day too short for all the thoughts I want to think, the walks I want to take, the books I want to read and the friends I want to see.
Because, lately, I keep hearing people blame love but love doesn't walk away. People do.
I want someone provocative and talkative.
I still remember so much.
I used to think it was me wanting you but then I realized it was you pulling me back in which means you need me way more than you'll ever realize.
You can take back your memories. They're no good to me.
You're just writing it off like everyone else.
She says she's no good with words but I'm worse.
What hurts more than losing you is knowing that you're not fighting to keep me.
The problem with my sarcasm is that, while half the time people think I'm being sarcastic, I'm being quite sincere.
We're only young once. Let's screw this up right.
Maybe the reason you two have to stop loving each other is because fate wants you to be just friends, where forever is a lot more possible.
Gimme a kiss and say we're just friends.
And I still can't listen to that song.
Be strong because it will get better. It might be stormy now, but it can't rain forever.
Friends are the ones who would give the world to you. Best friends are the ones who already have.
I hope you find a man that's worth a damn and treats you well.
In the end, we always go back to the people who were there in the beginning.
Heart, don't fail me now. Courage, don't desert me.
What happens when the boy holding your hand and the boy holding your heart are not the same person?
The ones who make you feel invincible even at your weakest points.

Saturday, December 12, 2009

Today, I hate perfect people.

Damn girl, dry your eyes.
Without you, I just feel like piece of me is missing.

My theory was that if I kept my distance for long enough, you'd realize what you were missing. You didn't.
Don't get your hopes up, babe.
And now we can stand side-by-side, and still be miles apart.
I find myself funny and yet I'm not laughing.
I had to go my way and you had to go yours but that certainly doesn't mean I didn't love you with everything I had.
I feel a pressure in my chest when I think of how we used to be.
You were never supposed to mean this much to me.
He said, "You make my organs sloosh around inside of me." I blushed, flattered, when I really should have been calling 911.
I don't hate you. Sure, you hurt me and you disappointed me. You made me so very angry and I thought you had abandoned me but hate never entered the equation.
Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, it's not the end.
I just want to be friends with you but everytime I hear your name, I still feel a little something I can't let go.
They said we stood a little too close, stared a little too long. They probably thought we had a little thing for each other. But, no. That would be silly.
Just for the record, today's weather is slightly sarcastic.
I DON'T FEEL LIKE TALKING. JUST COME SIT CLOSE AND WRAP YOUR ARMS AROUND ME. THAT'S ALL I NEED RIGHT NOW.

P.S. I enabled public comments so I would really appreciate it if you dropped a line. :]

Friday, December 11, 2009

I'm nothing but an ugly pinecone... [Dedicated to Kristi on her birthday.]

She's not an ordinary girl, you can see it in her eyes.
And watching her, it breaks his heart because he already knows.
So when the clouds hide the sun and the skies are all grey, remember that I'm just a phone call away.
He was handsome and he was charming and I've always had a thing for charmers.
Do you believe in love at first site? Me neither. I'm glad that we agreed.
I hope someday you'll find all my quotes, all my words, and you'll read them all. I hope you'll know that they're about you, and when you read them, I hope that at least a single tear will run down your pretty face.
She's got love in the palm of her hand but she's not strong enough to hold on.
So take this razor and sign your name on my wrists so everyone knows you're the one who did this to me.
So pull me closer and kiss me harder. I don't care how wrong it is.
She whispers, "I'm afraid of falling." He smiles and says, "Baby, I have wings."
We danced out there on that hardwood floor, chairs up and the lights turned way down low. The music played and we held each other close.
I'm leaving because you never asked me to stay.
I was sitting there as you held me. I could tell you were watching her. I know that you think you were holding the wrong person.
You saw her today, I know you did. Your eyes shined with the warmth of her smile and you didn't hold me as tight.
I was told to never look back, to keep walking. & the minute I looked over my shoulder, I saw everything I ever gave up on. All the things I let go, and all the people who let go of me.

Thursday, December 10, 2009

To my best friend, Cecilia.

Well, Cecilia is one of the most amazing people on this earth. And, when I say amazing, I mean stunning, intelligent, unparalleled, innovative, and charming. Gosh, I just love her so damn much. No one will ever be able to touch my heart like she has. She's seen me at my best, my happiest. She's seen me and got me through my worst. She was hands on involved in my stupidest moments.
Once upon a time, while I was at her house, we decided to go hiking up a hill where we found a little cave. Fearing mountain lions, we ran back to her house. We came back armed with a bat, I believe, and salt water. Because that can really protect two twelve year old girls from a mountain lion, right?
Another time, during her little sister's sleep over party, we had the idea to prank them. We sneaked into the kitchen with lotion, shaving cream, and various other ingredients of mayhem. Cecil had the idea to get whipped cream. Being stupid, though, she grabbed it by its lid and it fell out and landed on my foot. I thought I broke it. It was just a bruise though.
And have any of you been on The Grizzly at Great America? Well, girls, you might not want to go on with your boyfriends. Trust me, kay?
Well, I hope this shows a small portion of my love for the extremely incredible girl I'm proud to have called my best friend since forth grade.
I love you Cecilia, Cecil, Smecil, Smeci, Cec.
With all of my heart,
Jessy :]

PS. Like this.

Today, I hate cacti.

I always understand, in case you ever feel like being understood.
Challenges are what make like interesting. Overcoming them is what makes like worth it.
I sang your songs, I danced your dance, I gave all of your friends a dance but it wasn't worth never being yours.
Hopeless romantics know the truth: he's not just another heartbreaker. He's simply fallen in love with you.
Find me a person on their death bed who regrets chasing their dreams and I'll put down this microphone right now.
How long gone are you gonna be?
I want to be that one chance you took hoping that it would be the best chance you'd ever take.
Practice makes perfect but too much makes a whore.
I just need to see that two people can stay together forever.
True love brings out the best of you, it doesn't become the best of you.
I could make a million or wind up broke, free and easy down the road I go.
Hope is the ability to listen to the music of the future. Faith is being able to dance to it today.
People like you make people like me want to be a better person.
They can't kill your dreams, so they assassinate your character.
Maybe someday you'll look back and say, "Wow. That girl did love me."
Just a game? That's worse than sticks and stones.
Do it today. It could be illegal tomorrow.
Smile, gorgeous, because you deserve to.
YOU MAY SEE ME STRUGGLE, BUT YOU'LL NEVER SEE ME FALL.

Monday, December 7, 2009

Today, I hate spotlights.

Everybody stumbles sometimes and needs a hand to hold.
I love sleep. My life tends to fall apart when I'm awake, ya know?
You remind me of a song I used to love.
You can erase someone from your mind, but getting them out of your heart is another story.
We talked about old times and it made me smile because you didn't forget.
If I just lay here, would you lie with me and just forget the world?
I left you with nothing but a few tears in my eyes.
He held me way too long to be considered platonic but I didn't try to stop him. I let my head fall on his shoulder and I breathed his scent of rain in. His hands fell in the right place - one on the small of my back and one between my shoulder blades. They were big and warm and they made me feel so very safe.
Your picture is still up on my wall. Its not even a very good picture of you. I've seen more attractive boys but there's something about that smile on your face that brings tears to my eyes. I've always loved that smile.
Sometimes it's hard to love someone because you're so afraid to lose them.
And darn fool can make something complicated. It takes a genius to make something simple.
My heart is tied to you. Sadly, my lips are not.
We do not change as we grow older. We become more clearly ourselves.
And I became very sad because I realized that once people are broken in certain ways, they can't ever be fixed.
This too shall pass.
~~ Everything leaves a mark. ~~
At the end of the day, you either focus on what tears you apart or what holds you together.
Boy, you make my heart beat uncontrollably.
And she's scared because she's starting to realize how much he means to her.
And after all this time, the sun never says to the earth, "Hey, kid, you owe me." See what a love like that does? It lights up the world.

Sunday, December 6, 2009

Today, I hate haters.

This post, or at least the first ten quotes, is/are dedicated to one of my best friends in this entire world, Shelbea. She told me that almost all of my quotes are about relationships so I present to you ten that are not. :] Love, Jessica.

I'm not giving up. I'm starting over.
I want a friend who will notice that I'm not okay just by the way I'm texting them.
The more boys I meet, the more I love my dog.
Here's a map and here's a bible, in case you ever lose your way.
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean.
Well behaved women rarely make history.
People say that everything happens for a reason but really, we just give a reason for everything that's happened.
A smile is a curve that sets everything straight.
And then you said my name, and I knew I couldn't ignore you any longer.
You don't know this but, it's not supposed to be like this. Life isn't supposed to be this hard.
Here’s to the kids. The kids who would spend their night with Patrick or Sonny playing on their headphones then go to some vomit-stained high school party. Here's to the kids who 11:11 wish was wasted on one person who will never be there for them. Here's to the kids whose idea of a good night is sitting on the hood of a car, watching the stars. Here's to the kids who were never too good at life, but were still wicked cool. Here's to the kids who listened to Fall Out Boy and Hawthorne Heights before they were on MTV. Here's to the kids that blame MTV for ruining their life. Here's to the kids who care more about the music then the haircut. Here's to the kids who have crushes on a stupid lush. Here's to the kids who hum 'a little less sixteen candles and a little more touch me' when they're stuck at home, dateless, on a Saturday night. Here's to the kids who have ever had a broken heart from someone who didn't even know they existed. Here's to the kids that read Perks of Being a Wallflower and didn't feel alone after doing so. Here's to the kids who spend their days in photo booths with their best friend. Here's to the kids who are straight up smartasses and just don't care. Here's to the kids who speak their mind. Here's to the kids who consider screamo their lullaby for going to sleep. Here's to the kids who second guess themselves on everything they do. Here's to the kids who will never have 100% confidence in anything they do, and to the kids who are okay with that. - Pete Wentz
Its funny how someone can break your heart and you'll still love them with all the little pieces.
And maybe, someday, you'll write me a song too.
Let's flip a coin. Heads - you're mine. Tails - I'm yours.
A boy cried to God, "Why did I lose her?" God said, "You didn't lose her. You let her go."
It is a risk to love. What if it doesn't work out? Oh, but what if it does?
She said, "My heart is bleeding for you." And he says, "You're getting blood on my shoes."
Everyone is taught to look both ways before you cross the street and to be quiet in the library but we're never taught the important things, like how to keep breathing when your heart breaks in half.

Saturday, December 5, 2009

Today, I hate cupboards.

Goodbyes make you think of what you had, what you lost, and what you took for granted.
Its not that our love died, its just that it never really bloomed.
Promise me she isn't your whole world.
Everytime we kissed, you closed your eyes but I forced mine open just to see those short-lived moments where I let myself let you.
Just to see you smile, I'd do anything you tell me to.
I'm not comfortable with how this story ends. At first we were lovers, and now we're not even friends.
Hello, its me again. A whole lot has changed since I left.
It doesn't hurt to dream. It hurts to wake up.
I don't know why I act the way I do, like I have nothing to lose. Sometimes I act like my own worst enemy. I guess that's just the cowboy in me.
My favorite was when he finally said I love you. When I told him "I love you too," I felt, even in the darkness, how happy he was to hear those words. He had the cutest smile on him & he said, "I can't believe you love me too."

Jake, I love you. So please, don't make me choose. Cause it'll be him. It's always been him
[ ^^ for my brother, Jake ^^]
You just don't get it, do you? I'm not the girl you used to know.
There's something in you smile that makes me think that maybe you weren't quite ready to let me go either.
Do you ever feel like, if you were prettier, life would be so much easier?
I know I didn't love him, but I don't think anyone will understand how much I miss that boy.
Today, I was on the bus, venting to my best friend; my date had stood me up. I blamed it on my looks. As we got off, I heard a little boy say to his grandma, "I don't think she was ugly. I think she's pretty. I'd marry her."
"Wow... I'm so... I don't know... What's the word?"
"Perfect?"
She completely fell for him, but he didn't even stumble.
Sometimes, someone says something and it fits into a little empty place in your heart.
Since I ain't got nothing, I ain't got nothing to lose.
All you had to do was fight for me.
Its sad when people you know become people you knew. When you can walk right past someone and act like they were never a big part of your life. When you used to be able to talk for hours and now you can't talk at all.
~~If you judge people, you have no time to love them.~~
Arms are for hugging. Boys are for kissing. Sluts are for dissing. Best friends are for when the boy is kissing the slut and all you really need is a hug.
You're her whole entire world, kid.

Friday, December 4, 2009

Caught in between

Why is everyone obsessing over werewolves and vampires? I laugh at them because I have an incredibly attractive, human all to myself. ;]

You know you love someone when you when: no matter how much you fight, you always make up; no matter how mad they make you, you always forgive them; and no matter how hard you try, it's impossible to live without them.

There's nothing like hearing an old song on the radio and remembering why you loved it so much.




Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Beam out tonight.

one.
She knew one hundred and forty calories wasn't enough to live by
but she didn't really want to live, per se.

two.
If you're going to love me, love me deeply. If you're going to break my heart, break it all. If you're going to care about me, care about me completely. If you're not going to hold me, don't let me fall. If you're going to stay forever, stay forever but if you're going to leave, leave today. If you're going to change, change for the better and if you're going to talk, mean what you say.

three.
"The way I feel for you is just ridiculously special."
"I just love you."

four.
Don't worry, when I'm famous, I'll remember you.
I'll remember you and how you were always there for me.

[^^dedicated to Nicole Noel and Susel Alina!^^]

five.
I don't care how far away from me you are, or how long its been since we've talked. I don't care how mad I got at you or how mad you've been at me. You're still what matters most to me and I could never give up on that.

six.
Take me back to when our world was one block wide;
When I dared you to kiss me and ran when you tried.

seven.
He stumbles over his words. Closes his eyes tightly. Breathes in. Breathes out. Almost loses his courage. "I love you," he says. "I love you so much it hurts."

eight.
It's not where you are in life. It's who you have by your side.

nine.
But I'm not good for you, and if you want my friends' opinions, you're not good for me either. But disregarding all of that, you still hold my heart, just like always.

ten.
Its hard to wait around for something that you know might never happen but its even harder to give up on it when its all you've ever wanted.